“Your life is a sacred journey. It is about change, growth, discovery, movement, transformation, continuously expanding your vision of what is possible, stretching your soul, learning to see clearly and deeply, listening to your intuition, taking courageous challenges at every step along the way. You are on the path… exactly where you are meant to be right now… And from here, you can only go forward, shaping your life story into a magnificent tale of triumph, of healing, of courage, of beauty, of wisdom, of power, of dignity, and of love.” ~ Caroline Adams
A little over a month ago, I started practicing gentle Yoga.
Because of my heat allergy, I have not been able to do any physical exercise for about 11 years. As my Mayo Clinic doc explained to me, my muscles were going to atrophy which as he said was “really too bad.”
Since then, I have become very skilled at avoiding heat and physical exercise.
Then, I got a book deal. While writing it, I hit a block. Deep down I knew that I had to align my mind, body and soul for this labor of love. And, my body didn’t feel good. It felt, well, kinda dead. I needed physical energy, and my intuition was guiding me toward Yoga.
Even though I had tried Yoga before without success due to having a heat reaction after a few minutes, I knew in my heart it was time to try again.
I went to a gentle Yoga class and made it through the whole hour without over-heating. I was floating the rest of the day. I couldn’t believe after just ONE hour that I felt so good. My body felt alive again. And light and sore and achy in the most wonderful way. Just to feel it in any way felt good. To know those parts were there. To feel whole.
Yoga has allowed me to find my center again–my wholeness. It has also been a little bit of an emotional rollercoaster. It turns out that in addition to the heat challenge, my muscles really have atrophied. I am weak and shaky. I used to be strong, and sports always came easily for me. I was an athlete, dammit! However, I am feeling stronger every day and that is the most glorious feeling ever…my body is waking up.
I sit in the back of the room flopping around on my mat, taking a lot of breaks, modifying poses, unable to do what everybody else is doing, burying my face in a cold towel, and begging my body to not feel heat. One thought that went thru my head at the first rigorous class (I try regular Yoga sometimes now too) was, “Wow, I really am handicap.” I used to avoid this reality, but now I am facing it head on.
Yoga is exactly what I need, even if it isn’t always easy. Just like in painting and life, I’m gonna show up. And keep trying. Yoga is the perfect practice to gently wake up and align my body, spirit and mind. I’m pretty sure if everybody did yoga, it would change the world.
It has definitely changed mine. And, I am so grateful for this lifechanging gift that my intuition was guiding me toward. I have a lot of gratitude for the way writing a book brought Yoga and mind/body healing into my life. I feel so so good and am reminded to keep trying, introduce new things into my life, and listen to my intuition and go where it guides me.
I’m not sure where I’m going with this, I just feel like sharing the messages it sent me…
…Just because you couldn’t do something at one time, doesn’t mean that will always be the case.
…Change, growth, rebirth are constant and natural.
…Just because you can’t do something the way everybody else does or at the same speed or as well, doesn’t mean you shouldn’t do it at all.
…Honor your mind/body/spirit. Make time for your whole self and nurture those parts of you that need it.